'I dont want to be alone. I have never wanted to be alone. I fucking hate it.
I hate that I have no one to talk to, I hate that I have no one to call,
I hate that I have no one to hold my hand, hug me.I hate that I have no one to share
my hopes and dreams with. I hate that I have no one to tell me to hold on.
I hate when I am screaming into emptiness. I hate how there is no one
to hear my scream and that there is no one to help me learn how to stop .
I hate that what I have turned to in my loneliness is killing me, has already killed me,
or will kill me soon. I hate that I will die alone. I will die alone in my own horror.'
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