"So I have been taking care of all my affairs. Every last detail I can think of is done. There will be no unanswered questions. And for those thinking, keep fighting or I didn’t try. I did. I really really did. I went to therapy twice a week for a long time. It didn’t help me. It just highlighted more reasons that somewhere along the line, my life became a life I didn’t recognize anymore. They say, when shit gets hard, you’ll find out who your real friends and loved ones are.
Well, that couldn’t be more true. I had been under this illusion that I had a concrete tribe of people that loved me. I surely had been there for them more times that I can count. Picked them off the floor of their darkness and battled their demons with them. But when it was me, gone. And gone pretty quickly. Even my family. "
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