I have time to think. For once not for myself. But about people that i care about. The ones that changing my Life. Like my new frienss from here . I thinking about girl with good heart. About guy who whos drinking and on his own way cares about us all. About another one whos smoking a lot but really enjoy the Life the whay it is. And about my roommate from whom wr make jokes but he is always there to help me . In hours like that i miss you all a lot. We are the special group of outcasts . You all light up my Life a lot.
i am so lonely deep down. i feel jealous about all of this relatioships...i will never have that. i lost my chance long time ago . There is only the darkness that is winning with me everyday . Step by step taking the rest of that what was making me a human being. I am long forgotten by god . I dont longer know what to do and what to expect